06.30.21 Buzzing Around (Journal)

So what has life been like the past couple of months? Busy, happy and rejoiceful. Read on… -BB


I can’t begin to describe to you the great feeling when I was reunited with my family in late April. I hadn’t seen my family in a year or more, and it was amazing when my older sis Nickie from Cali, and my baby Sis and Mom from TX came to stay with me at my new home a couple of months ago. We had such a great time! We went to Santa Fe, I took them to Sandia Peak, out to eat here and there, and we had a great time. Cognitively and emotionally, I can’t tell you how much that meant to me to hug my Mom and sisters close, since it had been way too long and I spent over a year with them apart from Zoom meetings, which happened way too infrequently. I also can’t forget about all the loved ones I lost due to Covid-19.. my ex Alexander Diaz from Dallas, TX (to cancer) and my good friend Bobby Crone from Philly (also to cancer.) While my heart has ached for them so much, I also know that they would want me to go on living and being happy, so I have tried my best to grieve, while also allowing myself to put one foot in front of the other and move on with life. Seeing my family this past April (and May, when I visited Texas to also see my nephew Damian) was just incredible. Not only did I get to visit family in Texas in May, I also just returned from a trip to Southern California to see my niece Daisy and brother in law Scott, as well as my sisters, Mom and nephew once again. Also, an amazing trip! I’m blessed that I have the ability to take these trips and visit my family members, who are now fully vaccinated like me mostly and doing well. I know many out there don’t have that luxury so to honor those we have lost, I take about 5-10 minutes each day to meditate and think about all those we have lost, while vowing to do great work in their name.

As far as school goes, things are trucking along. I’m now in my 2nd year of grad school and still have all mostly A’s and am on the dean’s list for the third year in a row. Online schooling has saved me, since my regular 9-5 M-F job keeps me busy and still on my toes. With the recent move to my new home in January earlier this year, it has brought along with it it’s own unique set of challenges and concerns, but I can’t tell you how happy I am now that I am a full-fledged homeowner. (As my older sis says, “Adulting is fun!”) Despite the culture shock of moving to the sometimes loud, sometimes lawless (and always misunderstood and misrepresented) west side of town, I’m starting to find a happy balance of willfull ignorance and adjusting what I need to be happiest.

I’ve also been doing some work with Celebration Theatre Company, a local group brought together by a few friends and colleagues I worked with on the Christmas play I starred in this past October-December 2019. It truly changed my life.. being involved in my community at such a level, and all to honor my LGBTQIA+ roots and communities. We created the company a few months back with the sole focus of contributing to the overall health and happiness of LGBTQIA+ members, and being on the board as advertising and marketing director has been a bumpy but fun ride! I’m glad our first play, Through a Window, is now done and dusted and we can move on to the next, but having a breather is what I was looking for and I am thankfully having that time now!

Writing for me has been great therapy through the past 2+ years, since Grandma and Dad passed away, and life seemed to just get crazier and crazier since then. Here’s hoping the next few years are more predictable, and full of personal growth, fun, love and maybe a little romance. I’m ready for it! Only time will tell…

Stay safe..


BB


Picture was taken last Wednesday, June 23, 2021, in San Clemente, CA, with my family. xx

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