She carried me over on a wild gust Of dead brown leaves and desert dust She handed me off to higher powers And doused me in her dirty smelling rain showers The ebb and flow of who you are and what you know Seem to fade away As soon as tomorrow is... Continue Reading →
9. 18.19 Two Months Since. (Journal)
So, two days ago, it was two months since Dad passed away and left us. I'll say right now that it's the most difficult thing I've ever had to deal with in life, but I have absolutely zero regrets. That's very important. While Dad was here, I spent many vacation hours and tons of gas... Continue Reading →
8.1.19 Picking Up the Pieces & Trying to Move On… (Journal)
I think about Dad every second of every hour of every day. I think about all the great times, they overshadow the bad or sad ones. The memories come flooding back quickly and unrelentlessly, like a Summer monsoon... Like the time that my Sister Nickie stood at her bedroom window and told me at the... Continue Reading →
7.30.19 Resonating Still (Poem)
There's an odd aura around him And his eyes are open but he can't see My Dad's not in there, I can't stop crying I feel his spirit wanting to be free Resonating, shining through He misses us already and he's preparing to leave, too. He's resonating still, here or there if you... Continue Reading →
7.22.19 Oh Father. (Journal; Short Story)
The night of Friday, July 12, 2019 seemed like any other. That was twelve days ago, and life has been insane since then, so much that I don't know my life before it. To fill you in... I'd returned home from a busy day at work, wrapping up the week and preparing to begin work... Continue Reading →
5.24.19 Another Space for Someone New (Poem, May 2019)
Another Space for Someone New I know I need Another space for someone new But how can I Go on when I’m without you I know I need Another face or new hairdo But how can I Even get up out of bed Even get up out of bed When the world is spinning... Continue Reading →
5.24.19 A Quick Update & All The Fixins. (Journal)
Since the breakup with B, life has been a mixed bag of sorts. As of yesterday, the whole car accident situation has been fully resolved. After five weeks, i finally got my car back last night, fully repaired, and all that rental car business well and truly behind me. I can't tell you how relieved... Continue Reading →
5.11.19 Birthday Week & Mother’s Day (Journal)
So I'm sitting at my parents' house on my final day of my week-long vacation home... I've had a great time, and I needed this trip so very much. I arrived last Sunday morning around 2 am and dove into bed... I had just driven my usual 8.5 hours but half of that was riddled... Continue Reading →
4.19.19 One Door Closes… (Journal)
I'm always amazed at how quickly life can change from one day to the next, after being reliable and somewhat stagnant and predictable for the longest time, too. What happened over the past month, and how I handled all of it, really means that I am truly ready for anything! Life has definitely thrown me... Continue Reading →